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Hi. This is the first time I have told anyone if my 'fetish.' I thought I was alone during my teenage years until discovering the wonders if the Internet. I am not into the adult baby thing but do not mind if you are. My biggest turn on is a wetting and then filling my pants. I do it by myself and love to watch a woman do it on the net. Photos and videos of desperation, wetting and filling pants on a girl is amazing. I am very discrete. Even after a couple of long term (+3yr) relationships I have never told anyone and would expect this to stay a secret. Can't wait to talk to a woman and chat. As friends with a common interest and maybe meet up to live out my wildest fantasy- seeing you fill your pantys discretely in public

Argh, you know? i give up, i'm so angry and i don't know if i'm angry at myself or the person...

relationships are important to me, real relationships, wether it's a friendship or daddy/lg or whatever. and when i decide to be someones friend, i invest a lot of myself into that relationship. and i believe that relationships can be built on the internet, there just has be a stronger sense of communication and honesty. a little more of that and you're good to go!

so when someone emails you. for the first time saying they are interested in getting to know you / they think "we'd be perfect for each other". its like .. okay.. so my first instinct is to get to know the person. and i give then a test of sorts,

if the first email is really vague and about 2 sentenses long and it didn't even say " hi, my name is so and so" my radar is on. because for petes sake people, i know we are all on the internet but bloody hell. INTRODUCE YOURSELF PROPERLY. arrrrgggghhh segklj naeiuhenb.

so okay. never mind. i ask him to tell me about himself. and to ask me questions if he wanted and a picture. another 2 sentence email .describing his features and what he's like as a daddy.... and of course the questions are all about . how old am i as an Lg and what kind of diaper do i like . ...

this is extremely disappointing.. and i don't know if the problem is me or him. i email him back about how i felt about his response, and what i need and expect. and i was not trying to be offensive but he probably took it that way. saying how it was a great way to scare of someone potentially fitting and that he was glad that he didn't get caught up in my games or what not. because i'm obviously play a game !

i admit, i expect a lot out of people i meet on the internet. more so than just the regular joe, because hey , i don't know you , i don't see you, i have no information about you other than what you say . so even if it's to a small degree, i feel that my caution and my response is justified.

"1. You should've maybe gone into detail what you were looking for in an answer instead of being vague.
2. Yeah, you are overreacting a little. Way to scare someone off whom might've made a good match.
3. I'm sorry I asked about the little side of you, but hey... was curious so sue me.

So, if this is what I was to expect with you then I'm glad I'm not going to miss playing this game."

1.my being vague was a test, as if i was specific, i'm dictating his response. but by allowing him to respond on his own, i can then see a little of what he is like and what he is looking for.
2.my overreaction was my honesty, it was harsh but it wasn't cruel or with an intention to push someone away.
your curiosity should have been saved for when basic formalities had been exchanged...
i never play games...

i'm just so upset because i never like feeling like a jerk. and of course i feel like one but i'm also i hate the feeling of being misunderstood... i don't know. i'm just so frustrated and i hate this feeling. can you guys tell me what you think ? am i really overreacting, am i being a total bitch? arrrgggghhh
i don't want to be one...

i really .. don't know anymore ..

mmmm... french fries.. why is it call french fries anyway.. is it originally from france? mm
anyway, maaan i am so so so tried. like sooosososo tried. spring semester is totally kicking my butt :D hahaha

sooo work has been awesomely crazy hard, the assignments have been so much more challenging and i have been slacking off... so it totally caught up on me over the weekend, ._. ugh. so i had to work on my projects for about 14 hours each day ... i caught up of course but i'm trying to stay on top of it now. meaning i actually have to sit at my desk at night after a crazy day in studio to do my readings and conceptualizing .. mweeehhhh i actually have had to drink COFFEE for the past few days... i don't know why but i feel so trieeeddd. pout..

but i really want to do well because last semester i did well enough to get become an honor student *BOOYAH* and i want to maintain that you know ? but it's just like added pressure and i feel like when i can't do as good a job as i want to, i get overly worried that it's not good enough. and my liberal arts classes are so much more intense from last semester ANNDD i've started working on campus meaning 6 whole hours less to rest or work. eeeeekkk i'm totally freaking out people and it's ONLY been 1 and a half weeks.. O_O i may actually die.. a terribly artsy death. oil paint all over my face, fingers all messed up with paper cuts, and i'm just dreaaaming about going home.. i miss it terribly. :< siiigh . but OH WELL! gotta such it up right and keep on keeping on ?

RIGHT !
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Meow

and noooow back to work ! hurray for readings that i barely understand !

lisa over and outers

Well as i was a bit sleepy i got up at 10am (lazy me )
had breakfast mashed up weetabix with milk,had a wash brushed my teeth,dressed in beige coloured little boy shorts,stripped blue and white polo shirt,
Put a previous blog on here and then packed a picnic,and went on my bike through the woods which lucky for me,as i live in a major town in Hampshire uk,there is the beguining of a wood just five minutes away from my house,and as the woods have lots of nooks and cranies i had my pascifier in my mouth,and took my training cup with me,carrot sticks and genreal toddler food along with a banana,
had a nice ride and a nice picnic in the woods,hardly any one around,yes had pull ups on just incase of any accidents,and as the weather in my part of the country is nice and sunny,for the first time in ages it was nice to be dressed as a toddler in the open ok did take a light coat with me,i realy enjoyed it.
Now leaves me a question of what to do tonight i suppose i should of had a afternoon nap,after all that fresh air,but will go to bed early instead as we all need a nice nighty nighty sleepie byes.